My mom asked me if I was able to get any Starbucks cards, and if I went to Tokyo over break (because she doesn’t have the Tokyo Starbucks card). I was actually beginning to consider visiting Tokyo again before I leave…
Just rediscovered close-up/macro filters and really want to buy some now. Most of the camera related products I’ve looked up are cheaper in Japan than in the US, but close-up filters are an exception. o-o On US Amazon, a 4-filter set costs about $15, but the same or a similar set in Japan is about $23. Single filters are about $15 each. Hmm..
Have to think about whether I would need a tripod though. And whether I’m going to buy a new lens anytime soon.
Today, one of the newcomers was a UC Berkeley student! Only he and one other guy joined us for dinner. C-san, who I haven’t seen since like November! suddenly showed up while we were headed to dinner. He didn’t join us though.
We talked about train tickets/cards. M-ya-san showed us the card he used in Melbourne. A-san talked about what they have in France. S-san said how there aren’t any of the regular ticket gates in Tokushima, where he’s from. There, you have to show your ticket to a guy when you get off/on the train. We were surprised to hear this, and he said on the other hand that he was surprised when he came to Osaka and saw these electronic ticket gates where you can just tap an IC card. How convenient! he thought. LOL I’d heard of those kind of ticket gates, where you don’t stick a ticket through a machine/tap an IC card, because Kristie mentioned her boyfriend’s hometown was so inaka that they had that at the station. But I saw it for the first time when we went to Kyushu.
“Creative people are confident in only one thing: their own doubt. I think there’s a huge lack of self-confidence in a creative person because, by nature, the definition of a creative person is someone who is trying to make something new. They know, if they are professional creatives, that the likelihood of doing that—making something new and significant—is hugely unlikely, so they build within that city of doubt. From doubt, they get to iterate and work extremely hard, hoping to find something new; it’s all about hope. I’ve never met anyone who is good at what they do creatively and is super-confident. Maybe they pretend to be confident in front of their agent or the media, but I’ve never been confident in that way.”—John Maeda interview on The Great Discontent
“Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn’t move you farther ahead, improve your situation, or help you find peace. It just feeds your shame, fuels your feelings of inadequacy, and ultimately, it keeps you stuck. The reality is that there is no one correct path in life. Everyone has their own unique journey.”—Daniell Koepke
“I’m lonely. What kind of loneliness? Every kind. I feel disconnected. Abandoned. As always. Repetition. So what, my love? So what? At first, I just wanted to run away. Now I have no where else to run to, nothing to run from. I don’t belong anywhere, I don’t want to go anywhere, I just want to be happy.”—Daul Kim
“I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something, no matter what it is, go at it full speed ahead. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.”—Roald Dahl
“More and more I found myself at a loss for words and didn’t want to hear other people talking either. Their conversations seemed false and empty. I preferred to look at the sea, which said nothing and never made you feel alone.”—Paula McLain, The Paris Wife
Tried on a “shrunken boyfriend” button-up shirt at Gap, and it actually fit well! I got excited. It was more sheer than I expected though, but it’ll probably be okay. I’ll probably go back and buy it.. 100% cotton though. It’ll probably shrink if I put it in the dryer, right? Should I buy a size up…
Went to the newly opened used clothing store in Onohara. Half of it is still Book Plaza, much to my surprise. Anyway, I found and bought a pair of boots. They look cheaply made but are in pretty good condition and only cost ¥980. My heel comes up when I walk in them, but maybe I just need to tighten the laces…
Circle orientation was yesterday. Woke up at 5:30 because we were meeting at 8:15. Spent a few hours passing out flyers. We actually ended up handing out almost all 1200 of them! It was supposed to rain, but it didn’t at all until the evening, thank goodness. After I came back from lunch, I just sat at our booth and watched the other members explain the club activities. Even when there was an exchange student who didn’t speak Japanese, my fellow club members did their best to explain everything in English. I only came in to help when they didn’t know the word “dark room.”
Cleaned up and went grocery shopping for the party at 5:00. It didn’t start until quite later though. Only 5 people came (all guys), but it’s just as well because there’s no way we could have fit much more than that in the club room, especially because all the fourth years and one OG came as well.
I kind of want to buy new shoes because both of my sneakers are wearing out. But at the same time I feel like they’ll last me quite a while longer. Plus I want to save for a new camera lens. But the tax increase is in just a few days, and maybe now is a good time to buy shoes. If I could find a pair (in stores) to commit to. :\
You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago.
People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires.
You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep.
You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat.
You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to.
Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again.
Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place.
You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself.
Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it.
You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed.
Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive.
You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call.
You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter.
You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin.
Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you.
People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening.
on the phone with mama moon today I kept saying “I’m okay, I’m okay” and started to cry started to laugh while walking through union square. that lip quivering kind of laughter. I had forgotten how much of her I hold in my heart. “I wish I could hug you honey. we could lay in bed and I’d love you to death and we could watch the telly. its not fair, life isn’t fair, but you listen to your heart. follow it like you have been all your life. don’t apologize for what you want and what you choose. honey, it’s okay to not be okay.” I have to stop forgetting how much love I receive from so many places. I have to take that love and absorb it, let it heal me. I have to focus on that energy. only love. pure love. love from all my family so many of my friends so many people across the seas drifting in and out of me. gotta hold it close and never let this go.