I hear a lot of people say that they’re too scared to share their artwork because they fear that ‘pro artists’…or regular viewers will judge their work in a bad way.
Most artists I know spend more time critiquing the crap out of their OWN work. Honestly, why would they care to nit pick the creation of others, unless asked to? That takes so much energy! I’m going to assume most ‘pro artists’ draw because they have some amount of passion invested in their craft, why on earth would they take the time to discourage a fellow enthusiast’s interest?
If you want to show your work, show your work. You have every right to be proud of what you produce. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. Idiotic comments are an inevitable obstacle, and differing opinions and perspectives is a given. However, most people viewing your work are not looking down on you. Really.
I was doing math homework to further procrastinate on my essay when I started thinking about when the next reading needs to be done for HumCore… And then I started filling out my planner. Started worrying about how busy next week will be.
Then I checked FB to see that someone I’d known in middle school was seriously considering suicide. I spent a few minutes reading her status over again, trying to figure out whether she was joking, or perhaps I’d misread and someone had hacked her account or something.. I rarely see any updates from her. I started thinking about how I haven’t seen nor talked to her in years. I waited to see how her other friends would respond.
And then I spent about 40 minutes writing her a message that, in the end, I had to send through an email. I can’t argue or clearly present my thoughts, so my message probably won’t mean much. Plus I haven’t talked to her in ages, so maybe what I say shouldn’t mean anything. It’s just that.. in light of what happened yesterday with Ismael, whom I didn’t personally know, who didn’t have control over the end of his life.. Here’s someone I’ve actually talked to and laughed with and gotten to know, who is thinking about taking her own life. :(
A little sad because I felt stupid during my conference with my HumCore discussion leader and still am not quite sure what I’m going to write for my essay. And though the substitute TA for math was pretty awesome, I messed up on the homework “quiz” at the end. And I kind of feel bad for not going to the dodgeball game with my hall.
I’m hoping JSA cheers me up even though I’m not going bowling with them after the meeting..
“Because I knew what I loved. I loved to read; I loved to listen to music; and I love cats. Those three things. So, even though I was an only kid, I could be happy because I knew what I loved. Those three things haven’t changed from my childhood. I know what I love, still, now. That’s a confidence. If you don’t know what you love, you are lost.”—Haruki Murakami, interviewed in The Guardian.
I think I got back from LXP about 2 hours ago. I’m supposed to be studying, but I’ve been trying get info from my dad to fill out FAFSA form.. And then I started looking at scholarships on Fastweb. >.>;
——- There was a lunar new year activity at LXP tonight. We wrote messages and inserted them along with chocolate coins into red envelopes. The envelopes were randomized and then redistributed, and we had to find out whose messages we’d received.
Ate Korean sticky rice cakes and fortune cookies. The fortunes actually had Chinese words on them; it was pretty cool! Pauline “dances” to remember the different tones to Chinese and Vietnamese words. LOL So like pho was a wiggly downward movement, Nguyen was a wiggly horizontal movement, and 芒果 was up / and down and up again V… xD
A variant of na adjectives exist, which take 〜たる -taru when functioning attributively (as an adjective, modifying a noun), and 〜と -towhen functioning adverbally (when modifying a verb), instead of the 〜な -na and 〜に -ni which are mostly used with na adjectives. taruadjectives do not predicate a sentence (they cannot end a sentence, as verbs and i-adjectives can) or take the copula (as na-adjectives and nouns can), but must modify a noun or verb. Note that sometimes na adjectives take a 〜と, and Japanese sound symbolism generally take a (sometimes optional) 〜と, though these are different word classes.
There are rather few of these words, and they usually considered somewhat stiff or archaic; this word class is generally not covered in textbooks for foreign language learners of Japanese. One of the most common is 堂々 dōdō ”magnificent, stately”. These are referred to in Japanese as ト・タル形容動詞 (to, taru keiyōdōshi) or タルト型活用 (taruto-kata katsuyō – “taro, to form conjugation”).
Historically, these developed in Late Old Japanese as a variant of na-adjectives, but the form mostly died out; the remaining taru adjectives are fossils.
Had to turn in the rough draft of an essay by 11 pm. I didn’t even get to 2 pages! Most people got to at least 3. The final draft has to be 5-6 pages. >< But I really don’t know how I feel about the topic anymore, and I didn’t know what else to write… Why am I so stuuuupid? :(
Went to Facebook and this is the message my dad sent me:
Continuing my sci-fi/romance movie night with an old Chinese movie. LOL
I remembered Ms. Chang told us about it years ago, and I wanted to watch it but couldn’t find it. (Now I have better searching skills. :p ) She told us it was called 日出日落 五十年, but I guess that’s an alternate name or subtitle, because it’s called 朝花夕拾 (English title is Life Is a Moment). It also happens to be in Cantonese, but anyway… The only thing I remember her telling us about was how one of the characters travels back to the past, and in the future there’s no chocolate because all the cocoa trees went extinct.
I missed some details because I wasn’t paying attention, but the development of the relationship between the man and the woman is odd..
I just finished reading this week’s pages of 時をかける少女. I went over a little bit, but it’s okay. I just have an overwhelmingly long list of words (about 154 so far). There’s no way I can make all the flashcards by Monday. I’ll probably hold off on that and just turn in my list and an evaluation-thing. Anyway, I’m trying to figure out how to group the words so I can more easily remember them and have fewer flashcards to make.
I thought today was going to be a terrible day, but it wasn’t that bad.
Stomach has been hurting since dinner last night. Well, it stopped hurting when I went to bed and when I woke up this morning all the way until HumCore lecture.. And then briefly before math class.
Debate in Japanese.. The professor is so nice, even though she kind of put me in the spotlight for not saying anything. I know she just wants us to do well.
Spent all of my gap time trying to finish HumCore homework. I only did about half of it because it was taking so long. It turned out I did it wrong though.. Class ended on a good note, so I left a little happier.
I wanted boba but the groups selling it already packed up and left by the time class ended. :\ So I went to Zot-N-Go and ended up buying a cup of hot chocolate.
Math quiz was easy, but I might have done the projection wrong, and in that case I got the problem after that wrong too. Plus I didn’t have time to go back and check my work, so I’ll probably get marked off for stupid algebraic errors.
JSA meeting tonight. We’re going to Red Robin to eat. I hope my stomach is up to it. >.<
Are we part of the same world, you and I…? There’s no true answer but… Even a destined meeting is orchestrated by a decision that is not our own…
If I can touch your heart, I could tell how you feel I get this feeling as though everything is forged and fabricated In this sea of nameless people, I’m the only exception They’re all the same, just like dolls
I feel as if the reason why I can now see through reality is because I know how to love What it means to be alive… You take hold of my hand in return and…
There had always been a doubt in my mind about this rusting world But the answer you gave me… The first love that you brought me… And yet, why is this shadow still cast over my heart?
Even as the new sun rose, you gently shed the last of your tears in this world with closed eyes You weren’t a cookie-cutter puppet, you were just someone that belonged to me This warmth is something that just can’t be seen
If I can touch your heart, I could tell how you feel It’s as though everything is molded and thrown together A world of nameless people… I’m the only exception They’re all the same, looking like dolls
And then there was me, who always distrusted the ways of this rusting world, but… The answer that you gave me… The first love that you brought me…
I have to do something in order to remember all the new words/expressions I come across while reading the novel for Japanese. Right now the only thing I can think of is making flashcards with pictures, but I think I might get lazy…
I don’t remember if I said this before, but I kind of want to try reading 那些年，我們一起追的女孩.
YesAsia sells it for $19, but it’s 3 shipment units for some reason. o.o The other online store I found is ChineseBookOnline ($14.30). The retail value is only like $9. -_- I can probably find it online somewhere if I looked harder.
I don’t know how to I got to thinking about the movie/book. I was just listening to ONE OK ROCK..