I was doing math homework to further procrastinate on my essay when I started thinking about when the next reading needs to be done for HumCore… And then I started filling out my planner. Started worrying about how busy next week will be.
Then I checked FB to see that someone I’d known in middle school was seriously considering suicide. I spent a few minutes reading her status over again, trying to figure out whether she was joking, or perhaps I’d misread and someone had hacked her account or something.. I rarely see any updates from her. I started thinking about how I haven’t seen nor talked to her in years. I waited to see how her other friends would respond.
And then I spent about 40 minutes writing her a message that, in the end, I had to send through an email. I can’t argue or clearly present my thoughts, so my message probably won’t mean much. Plus I haven’t talked to her in ages, so maybe what I say shouldn’t mean anything. It’s just that.. in light of what happened yesterday with Ismael, whom I didn’t personally know, who didn’t have control over the end of his life.. Here’s someone I’ve actually talked to and laughed with and gotten to know, who is thinking about taking her own life. :(
